Marriage is a journey filled with growth, understanding, and sometimes challenges that can seem impossible. I want to share a personal experience that significantly impacted my marriage and how I learned to navigate it with God’s guidance.
The Struggle with Perfectionism
I carried a “good girl” and perfectionist mindset for many years. Coming from a humble background, I genuinely believed that striving for perfection in my thoughts, actions, and beliefs ensured the best outcomes for my home. However, this mindset didn’t yield the positive results I anticipated—instead, it became a barrier in my relationship with my husband.
When my husband pointed out something I did wrong, especially if his tone was harsh, I immediately felt attacked. I took his feedback as an indictment of my worth as a wife. This led to defensiveness, as I didn’t want to be seen as a bad wife. Our interactions became tense, and I often found myself wishing he could understand me better, that he’d ask questions first, or consider that my intentions were never malicious.
The Impact on Our Marriage
Over time, I saw that this perfectionist mindset was doing more harm than good. It made me proud, resistant to feedback, and ultimately unable to truly honour my husband. The disconnection it caused was palpable, and I knew something had to change.
Here’s what I did differently:
1. Confronting the Perfectionist Mindset: The first step was acknowledging that no one is perfect—not me. Accepting this truth allowed me to be more gracious with myself, recognizing that mistakes are a natural part of life and growth.
2. Seeing Mistakes as Learning Opportunities: Rather than seeing mistakes as failures, I began to view them as opportunities to learn and grow. This shift in perspective was crucial in helping me let go of the need to be perfect.
3. Becoming an Active Listener: I consciously listened to my husband’s feedback without immediately becoming defensive. By focusing on understanding rather than reacting, our communication improved significantly.
The Transformation in Our Marriage
As I worked on these areas, I noticed a positive change in our marriage. The lost connection began to return, and we both became more open and understanding of each other. My husband felt more respected, and I felt more at peace, knowing that I was contributing to the health of our relationship rather than undermining it.
In many marriages, certain mindsets can inadvertently create disconnection. Whether it’s perfectionism, pride, or something else, recognizing these patterns is the first step towards healing and restoring your relationship. I hope my story encourages you to reflect on any similar challenges you might be facing and to seek ways to address them.
Remember, marriage is a partnership that requires continuous growth, patience, and understanding. We can revive and strengthen our relationships by confronting our shortcomings and striving to improve. How good are you at receiving counsel or corrections from your husband?
